No motivation - feeling like a failure!

Well where do i start? In the last week I have had family sized block of kit kat chocolate, large family packet of salt and vinegar chips, just had kfc, went to sizzler for lunch.

I have lost all motivation, because of my gain of 2.6kg last monday. I am sick and tired of this damn rain. We have got enough please let it stop. I know down south there is a heatwave going on, but we are never happy when it is sunny we say its too hot bring on the rain, and when it is raining lots like this we say bring on the sunny weather. I have never seen so much rain and water lying around. I cant my washing done, washing is piling high, we can only do little loads at a time and wait till that load is dry on the line before we can do the others.

I have done no exersice or stayed within my points total. I am so tired of making excuses, why cant I just shutup stop complaining and making excuses and just get on with it? It is for life this weight loss journey, but why cant I stay focused?

I am tired of working in childcare, its too much political correct stuff policies and procedures,

I have been feeling like i have been targeted for people to make me feel stupid. I am tired of people telling me how to do my job.

We lost power twice today one time at 6am in the morning for about an hour and then tonight at 650pm for an hour. we pay good money to have electricity why cant this power company keep regular maintence on the power boards etc.... We had a power box go up in flames that is why we lost power, but still..........

I want to be a good mum and be active with my little boy. I want my son to feel proud of his mummy and not worry of people talking about me saying im fat etc... I want my husband to have a wife that is healthy and sexy (he only wants me to be healthy and grow old with him) I want to be able enjoy spending time with him in our bedroom (if you know what i mean!)

I want alot of things to happen for me and i know that i am the only one who can make it happen, and noone else can make it happen for me except for me. Everyone can encourage me and give me advice but it is up to me to make it happen.